Well I don’t know about you, but I have found July to be kind of weird. I probably should have known things were going to get hectic – but let me start from the beginning.
Sometimes I like to stand at our bedroom window and look out to the night sky before I jump into bed. There’s nothing like looking at the stars or the moon to make you feel more at peace with everything.
Except a shooting star. And the one I saw also collided with another star – a bright burst of light that lasted for not even a second.
It was this moment of magic I thought of on the afternoon I was made redundant. Yep, I am entering my second week of redundancy – although I like to think of it as my second week of living.
The greatest gift you can give a writer is a little bit of money to pay the rent and a lot of time. Suddenly I have both those things. Even in the shit moments when I get down and think ‘what the hell do I do now?’ I know how lucky I am.
And there have been shit moments. Redundancy is a rollercoaster ride where just as you feel you’ve won the lottery, that bloody judgemental voice comes into your head and you get scared.
Isn’t it incredible how easy it is to be pushed off course because of fear and doubt? Even though I was miserable at my job I kept pushing on, telling myself it would all mean something at the end of the day.
But I had forgotten what my real goals were. I never wanted a big home loan or to get into debt that would keep me trapped for the next thirty years, and yet that’s what I had begun working towards.
And now C and I get to do things on our own terms. We will still build our home, just on smaller scale and a much smaller budget. That means mortgage-free. Our plan is to go as off-grid as we can, and over the next few months I’ll be getting back to basics and learning the fine art of living again.
I’ll be getting my hands dirty learning how to grow our own food properly, setting up a beehive, making cleaning products, baking bread, pickling – everything you can think of that means living a simple and good life.
I’m excited to be able to share this next chapter of my life with you readers. I hope you enjoy the journey as much as I think I’m going to.